I am so sorry to worry everyone.  I was not talking about me.  My niece is having alot of problems and she has always talked to me about it.  And when she first told me she ws doing this last year I was there for her to lean on and talk to.  She does not do it anymore because we helped her.  But I always fear she will do it again because of the stress she is put under for several reasons.  The entry I wrote was in result of an email I received from her.  I was crying by the time I was done reading it.  I could actually feel the pain she was feeling.  I just wanted to give her a hug through the computer. 
So I'm so sorry for everyone thinking it was me....No!  I'm the biggest baby about everything.  I wouldn't be able to do something like that even with how awful I feel sometimes.  I'm a chicken of pain.  But I thank all of you for thinking of me girls!  I love ya!  Hugs~